“Please God, take away my breasts.” This was my prayer at nine years old as I stood in my yard seeking God. It was the first time I thought God spoke back to me. “You will change your mind.” My knee-jerk reaction was, “No I won’t!” I sensed “a smile”. Honestly, I don’t know how to explain or describe that experience any better. It was my desperate plea to God. He knew why I asked—more than I did. My mom had told me to talk to God as a friend and sometimes I might hear back in a way I would know it was God. I believed her and experienced God for the first time.
I really never told anyone for many years. October 2023 I stood at a podium at a “You Are Not Alone” Women’s Seminar and told the large group that story. Today at 64, married for 43 years, having birthed two sons —loving being their mom and love their wives and now three grandchildren; of course, God was right!
I often wonder, if I were born in this generation with posts like those below, would my mind have changed so easily?
Now facing possible breast cancer (upcoming Oncologist Breast Specialist appointment and possible second set of biopsies) that nine-year-old experience has come to mind often. I cannot fathom WANTING, CHOOSING, to go through with a mastectomy! I think of all I would have missed, all the pain that it would have involved…
I grieve for anyone who has been questioning why they are the sex they are. I sure did and for really good reasons. That’s for another time. My heart goes out to any who can relate to this short blog. I hope the very best for you. My earnest request is for you to talk to God and do your research.
I heard that females transitioning to males are dying young because their spines are not fusing correctly due to the change of hormones… The suicide rate, death rates, and negative statistics across the board should be taken into consideration..
Below is a place to potentially start researching…
Scott has transitioned from a women and now looks fully male. He speaks boldly of his fake penis. And he regrets his transition…
From my heart to God’s and back to any who have read this: May your journey bring you to know God’s great love, grace, and mercy through Christ The Savior!
